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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Block

I've got partially written posts sitting around as drafts. I've got a million and one ideas. But for whatever reason, I can't seem to actually write something and FINISH it. Writer's block? Emotional block?

I've been reading all of your blogs, commenting on some. I'm trying to think of all the things I want to do for me. Things that I had pushed aside or planned to just not do because I was making compromises for love. It's actually kind of hard to remember some of them. And I've changed, so a lot of things aren't even the same. I guess I'm rediscovering myself.

It's weird.

I think I've moved into the next stage of grief. Which happens to be Revenge. I'm not actually going to do anything...but a girl can dream, right? The problem here is that I don't think I've actually left the other two stages (Sad and Angry) yet, so I've got that pleasant emotional roller coaster thing going on. It's like junior high but instead of coming down from a crush I'm coming down from an engagement and by this point in my life I've made plans for my life that could actually happen instead of dreaming about how someday I'll be tall.

(Don't judge. Sometimes even an English major needs a break from the rules of grammar.)

Posts about stuff I actually did (vs my ramblings) coming soon. Not going to promise they'll be coherent, though.


P.S. Yes, I am still pouting about the superbowl. I heart my colts. *Tear.*


7 comments :

Al said...

your head must be so full at the moment... just take each day as it comes.

Dont let it enter your mind that he may read this, its your space and none of his business.

I hope everything eases up for you.

And i dont know if it will help but when i needed inspiration after a breakup i spent alot of time on www.holliesquotes.com it kinda helped to have words written from people that know what im feeling and have been through it.

x

De said...

I'm willing to share my "rip his head off, stuff it, mount it and throw darts at it" fantasy.
Mom

PS And I hope he does read it...and it hurts.

Becky said...

Like the others said, don't worry at all about him maybe reading this blog. You are more than free to use this space to rant, vent, or write about any other emotion you have! Hang in there!

Nicole said...

THATS RIGHT! This is YOUR blog! and let it out sister! =D

Teresa @ ♥ TOO MANY HEARTBEATS ♥ said...

Oh, Meg! I missed some of your older posts and I'm so sorry that I didn't read back. I know you must be hurting and I am SOOOO sorry! Please DO NOT apologize for anything! Take your time and say what you want...or don't say anything. We are here for you.

Holding you close in prayer.

{{HUGS}}

Teresa <><

De said...

Hey, Sweetie, just wanted you to know that I love you! You've been on my mind a lot this week so I'm praying.
Mom

De said...

Hi, Love, there's a little bit of sunshine for you over on my blog.